But I'll tell you what hermits realize. If you go off into a far, far forest and get very quiet, you'll come to understand that you're connected with everything

 - alan watts

tree in solitude nesodden 2010

Love is confusion and where there is confusion there is a chance of enlightenment

Maria Rommel

daily tarot@TheWildUnknown

Astrology Forecast

Reflection and frustration,
Push me to create,
The new world I imagine,
And am here, now, to make.

S P R I N G

It´s happening again.
The Spiral Of Life
We have already passed Spring Equinox and the days are getting longer.
But I have to admit that I still feel like a hibernating Mama Bear.
It`s time for cleansing out old winterdust with heaps of meditation and breathingwork.
Plant the seeds you wan`t to grow in your inner garden.
And nourish the ones who`s already there.

Keep your heart planted in the dirt.



there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see

charles Bukowski

Tussilago Farfara

Mercury Retrograde

Mercury goes Retrograde February 6–28 in Pisces then Aquarius.

Mercury is both a Magician and a Trickster.
There's magic if we listen carefully.
And opposite - it is like slipping on a banana peel if we not listen and rebel against the flow.

This happens three to four times per year, when the planet Mercury slows down, and appears to stop (station) and move backward (retrograde).
It's an optical illusion, since there is forward movement, like speeding by a slow-moving train -- as it recedes, it appears to go backward.

Mercury is the planet of communication, and more broadly, it rules connections of all kinds.

Under any ‘Retrograde Phase’  it is wise to get more rest, sleep and rejuvenate. 
This is truly a time to slow down.
In this case it is the ‘Mental Energy’ and mind that requires rest. 
If you rebel against it, it is possible to become more irritable, impatient and create more confusion.


This is also a time of feeling a lot, and very deeply. Allow your feelings and review of emotional experiences and growth to lead you to decisions and actions that result in a review of what we know or how we perceive things.

Don't assume that the other person is "on the same page" that you are.

Miscommunications are very common, and what you think was communicated may not be what was actually heard.

Double check everything, and be prepared for surprises and delays.

Stay flexible as much as possible.

Give your brain a holiday by spending some time in your Right-Brain :)

You can read more of this insights here: mysticmamma.com

Värmland

Trust and Believe

Life will come along and screw you up!
Commit to change!

S U R R E N D E R - and unfold your true Nature

A certain darkness is needed to see the stars

Osho

Sognsvann Stillness

Goodbye 2013

 ( ( ( ♥ ) ) )

2013 - A year with lots of love, change, growth, grief, illness and new insights.

And the most inportant - it`s been guiding me right back into my heart, over and over again.

A couple of memorable moments in 2013:
 

Celebrating my way into the 40`s in Tulum Mexico.

My beloved brother moved to Oslo- I can`t decribe how grateful I am.
Zen Coaching Training completed at Beautiful Ängsbacka.
The yearly Celebrate retreat at Crete with my companion Surya.

Spending a month on the wild and energetic Island of Crete is such a blessing.
Almost 3 weeks holiday in New York celebrating life. As it is.
My yogaretreat Restore And Revitalize were held for the first time in Tuscany late Sept.
And all everyday moments and meetings in- between with amazing people.
The best x-mas and ending of the year happend. In a cabin at the countryside in Värmland Sweden.


And the best and scariest of everything. Having a pause from teaching.
Doing "nothing".
Working fulltime on healing my body inside out.

Thanks to my loved ones for being there.
To all my teachers.
And thanks to all my students for going this path with me.

I bow to you.

2013, thanks for holding me. For guiding me in right direction.
 

2014, I meet you in silence

 

 ♥ ♥ ♥ Namaste.

Magic in New York 2013

 

Rest, accept - Repeat!!

Our regular hathayoga practice is a real luxury.
And often we take it for granted.
It is not until we are unable to practice we really understand the value of what it brings to us.

And of course -  the fact that you are unable to have a physical practice -  will guide you deeper into your already existing practice.

I have said those words. Many times.
And believed those words.
And for sure heard those words, a million times.
And it is not until now I understand the meaning deep into my core.

It comes to my mind that I`m used to process a lot of my everyday life on my mat.
Both mentally, emotionally and physically. Thats not uncommon. We all do.
And moving things around physically also kept my body healthy and vibrant.
Now, when Im unable to use my physical body in that process it`s been tricky to really surrender and accept how things are.
It was a whole lot of easier a couple of years ago when I had bad fracture in my left hand.
After 2 surgeries and 2 months I were teaching a retreat in Costa Rica.
Happily convinced that I were back on my hands during summer the same year,
It happend.

Today it`s different. Of course. It always are.
More painful. More resistance.
And thats a good thing.

I`m still learning how to be more gentle. More kind. Patience.
Really going outside my comfort zone.
To truly dare to rest is being far out of my comfort zone.
Being still. At peace. Watch every moment grow.
I surrender. And I reflect even more.
I`m closer to the present moment even when I´m not teaching or practicing a challenging asana.
And I wan`t to share that wisdom.

I witness Life as it is.
That`s such a great gift.
I am forever grateful.

Truth

Maybe the deepest part of who we are is what scares us or breaks our hearts and we don’t want to share that with anyone and when we do, we don’t want to lose those people

 - unknown

 

 

Healing Hippie Love

"When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn."


~Harriet Beecher Stowe

Soft Vrikshasana - India Mandrem Beach 2011

Ganesh

I bow to Ganesh with the beautiful potbelly.
Thanks for always guiding me.

Ganesha ( also spelled Ganesa, also known as Ganapati and Vinayaka)
is immediately recognizable as the elephant-headed god.

Ganesh is the master of wisdom and knowledge.
He is the remover of obstacles, and guardian of beauty, prosperity, grace and compassion.
Ganesh is the first deity to be reverenced in Hindu rites and a guardian of doors of houses and temples.
He is the God that removes the internal and external obstacles of our success, and he is the one that grants the opening of our spiritual gifts.
Ganesh is the Lord of Beginnings and also the protector of all beings.

His mantra is Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha. 
This particular mantra which can be loosely translated to :
Yo! Wake up the energy of transformation so I can move through any obstacles in my life. Hooray!
Most importantly, we are calling upon the powerful energy of Ganesh.
  
Click to listen:  Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha. 


A very loose translation might be:
Om = Salutations! Everyone wake up!
Gam = The secret power sound of Ganesh. It is his “seed syllable” or bija mantra.
Ganapataye = Another name of Ganesh, the breaker of obstacles.
Namaha = Yo! Ganesh! You da God!
 

Ganesh - India 2011

Aleph

note to self

Inhale - Exhale

Breathing is one of the simplest things in the world, we breathe in and we breathe out.
Our first inhale as newborn and our last exhale when we leave this life.

Yoga breathing, or Pranayama, is the science of breath control.
Pranayama comes from the following words:
Prana: life force" or "life energy"
Yama - "discipline" or "control"

By practicing deep and systematic breathing through Pranayama, we reenergize our body.

In our daily lifes it isn`t always easy remember to breathe consciously.
Often we tend to ignore our breathing. Especially during stressful times when we actually
need it as most.
To practice mindful breathing it doesen`t need to be in a yoga class.
Take 5 minutes at home lying down ( maybe in bed) and explore your own breath.
Put your hands on the belly and let the breathing be soft, deep and gentle.
Just stay there and feel. Let the belly rise and fall.

I broke my hand 3 years ago in 2010.
Something like a 5 metacarpal spiral fracture
A milestone, both in my spiritual journey and in my career as a yoga teacher.
A big fat slap to my ego.
I cant`t say I did it all right with the breathing by then.
I did my best with the tools I had at that point.
(For instance: I went to Costa Rica and teached a retretat ;)
And I learned a lot.
I had to slow down. Change my approach to yoga.
Patience.
After 2 surgeries and a titaniumplate in my hand I did two new tatooes on my wrists.
Inhale - Exhale


It is a journey. And we can always learn more. Grow.
These days I remind myself to breathe more consciously again.
Slowing down.
Snuggle into my nest.
Not what I wanted this spring - but what I truly need.


When the Breath wanders, the mind is unsteady, but when the Breath is still, so is the mind still.

 Hatha Yoga Pradipika

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Just Breathe
The Simplest Means of Managing Stress

Our bodies aren’t shy about telling us that we are stressed out! Muscle tension, backaches, stomach upset, headaches, burnout and other illness states are ways in which the body signals to us the need to relax. Rather than run for that anti-anxiety medication, we can utilize our easiest, natural defense against stress: our breathing. The way we breathe can affect our emotions and mental states as well as determine how we physically respond to stress.

Fight or Flight Response vs. Relaxation Response

The general physiological response to stress is called the stress response or “fight or flight” response. When we experience stress, hormones activated by the sympathetic branch of the autonomic nervous system flood our bloodstream to signal a state of readiness against potential threats to our well being. While these hormones serve to help us act quickly and with great strength during emergency situations, they exemplify the concept that there can be “too much of a good thing.” Chronic stress results in excess release of stress hormones, which can cause immune-system malfunction, gastrointestinal issues, and blood vessel deterioration, among other health complications. Over time, such symptoms can evolve into degenerative diseases like diabetes, obesity, and cardiovascular disease.

We can help preserve and enhance our health, though, by refusing to fall victim to chronic release of stress hormones, even if we are not able to control when or how stressful situations challenge us. We can learn to effectively manage our physiological reaction to stressors by teaching the body to induce a relaxation response. A relaxation response counteracts the effects of the fight or flight response by helping to boost immune system function, reduce blood pressure and cortisol levels, and protect tissues from damage caused by stress-hormones.

Breathing and Relaxation Response

The way we breathe affects our autonomic nervous system (ANS), the branches of which signal automatic physiological reactions in the body, like the fight or flight and relaxation responses. ANS activity is outside of our conscious control. The ANS is responsible for managing our breathing, heart rate, body temperature, digestion, and other basic processes necessary for survival. While the sympathetic branch of the ANS initiates the stress response, the parasympathetic branch induces a relaxation response. Our somatic nervous system, over which we do have conscious control, makes possible the movements of our eyes, limbs, and mouths, for example, as well as how (not whether) we breathe. Thus, we can, through somatic manipulation of our breath, affect which ANS branch remains active, especially during moments of stress.

One of the best means of inducing a relaxation response is through diaphragmatic breathing: inhaling deeply through the chest and virtually into the stomach. Engaging the diaphragm may be the key to inducing a relaxation response through deep breathing because the diaphragm’s close proximity to the vagus nerve. The vagus nerve is a cranial nerve which supplies approximately 75% of all parasympathetic fibers to the rest of the body, and may be stimulated through diaphragmatic movement. Conversely, thoracic breathing that is limited to the chest cavity is associated with the sympathetic branch stress response.

Self-Empowerment through Breathing

Situations may catalyze stress for us when we are uncertain about them or unable to control their outcome. We may feel helpless, overwhelmed, fearful, or forced into stifling our true feelings, and may experience additional anxiety over our inability to control the resulting hormonal fight or flight response. The key to stress management is recognition that while we may not be able to control the stressor, we can always control our reaction to it. We have choices: whether to relax through diaphragmatic breathing techniques until we feel ready to make beneficial decisions, or to just react while on sympathetic branch automatic pilot. Even if we don’t find a solution to the stressful situation, choosing to take time out to breathe protects our bodies from detrimental effects of stress.

Upon experiencing fear or anxiety, our diaphragm involuntarily flattens and we breathe in a shallow manner as our body prepares for action. Armed with the knowledge that we can create a counter-response by breathing deeply, we can change any automatic course of action. When a stressor engages us, we can consciously control the speed and fullness with which we inhale, trusting that a relaxation response will happen as long as we keep breathing in this manner and do not lose patience. Recognizing the need to breathe diaphragmatically is half the battle; actually doing it is what empowers and frees us.

Diaphragmatic Breathing Techniques

To practice diaphragmatic breathing, lie down on your back or sit in a comfortable cross-legged position with your back as straight as possible (maybe against a wall) and close your eyes. Place your hands on your abdomen. Slowly inhale, filling your lungs and what seems like your stomach, to the point where your hands rise with the breath. Hold your breath for a few seconds, then slowly exhale completely. Repeat this process for many breaths, savoring the recognition that you are sending life-sustaining oxygen to all the cells of your body.

One of the keys to creating a relaxation response is to “be the breath.” Focusing on the breath helps you be present. When thoughts enter your mind, acknowledge them, let them go, then refocus the mind on the sound of your breath. Perhaps visualize a relaxing scene or imagine continuous ocean waves slowly rolling into the shoreline. Maybe listening to peaceful music or repeating a mantra in your head that brings you serenity will help you free your mind of distracting thoughts. Your memory is another tool you have to facilitate relaxation. Recalling a time of great happiness can help you replace negative feelings with pleasant ones. Tapping into your particular spiritual belief system at this time might also help you relax; some people find that saying a prayer while breathing deeply can help decrease stress.

Diaphragmatic Breathing Offers Multidimensional Benefits

Bridging the mind and body through deep breathing is a multidimensional experience. Because the sympathetic and parasympathetic branches of the ANS are regulated by chemical messengers called neurotransmitters, rather than neural impulses from the brain, brain stem and spinal cord, these branches are influenced by our emotional responses to environmental stimuli. Neurotransmitters create physiological reactions by relaying information based upon our feelings to various cells within the body. The digestive tract is especially rich with neurotransmitter receptor sites, which may explain “gut feelings."

Fear, for example, initiates thoracic breathing associated with sympathetic branch activity. When we breathe in a shallow manner, we utilize only half of the alveoli (air filled sacs) in our lungs. Diaphragmatic breathing employs all the alveoli in our lungs while helping the body and mind relax. By repeatedly expanding our lungs to full capacity, we improve our metabolism by increasing oxygen supply to the rest of the body, promoting detoxification in the lungs, and enhancing digestion.

We may also be able to change the emotions which engendered the stress response by releasing their power over us through the breath. Clear thinking and creative decision-making may follow and lead to more positive emotions. The multidimensional effects of deep breathing illustrate the complex connections between the mind and the body and enhance our understanding of stress-related disease prevention and treatment.

When It Comes to Stress, Be Your Breath

The solution to stress lies within us. Nature has given us a defense mechanism with which to combat the physical effects of stress: parasympathetic nervous system activity catalyzed by diaphragmatic breathing. While breathing alone may not resolve the issue stressing us, it can empower us to healthfully adapt on mental, emotional, physical, and even spiritual levels.

Consciously breathing is a core element of mind-body philosophies such as yoga, meditation and Tai Chi (diaphragmatic breathing as described in this article most closely resembles meditation). Mind-body disciplines, such as Yoga and Tai Chi, which embrace specific postures and/or fluid movements offer added benefits of improved balance, flexibility and circulation. Regularly practicing diaphragmatic breathing through any mind-body technique can help us establish a relaxation routine. When something is routine, we can “just do it” (i.e. let our thoughts go because we don’t need to think so much about what we are doing). A movement –based breathing practice may be the best means of relaxation for more physically active people, and can be a great way for less-active folks to get some exercise.

For some, spirituality may permeate the mind-body breathing practice. The role of spirituality in stress management may relate to how we perceive situations beyond our control. Wayne Dyer, an inspiration guru, lectures and writes that we are eternal spiritual beings who are having temporary human experiences, which seems like another way of saying “don’t sweat the small stuff.” Believing in a higher power (whatever that means to us individually) can relieve us of the perceived burden of always having to handle things on our own.

Learning to cultivate a relaxation response may involve trying various methods until you discover the one that works for you. Finding a technique that you enjoy is the key to making it a lifestyle habit. When you feel the effects of stress… just breathe.

References and Resources:

Merck Manuals Online Medical Library. Autonomic Nervous System: Introduction

Sinatra, S. Heartbreak and Heart Disease. Keats Publishing, 1999.

Stockdale B. You Can Beat the Odds: Surprising Factors Behind Chronic Illness and Cancer. Sentient Publications, 2009.

Found here:http://www.heartmdinstitute.com/v1/heart-healthy-lifestyles/mindbody-connection/just-breathe

She took a leap of faith and grew her wings on the way down

~ David Brinkley

mountain herbs Crete 2012

Dum spiro spero

While I breathe, I hope



killersurf ulu watu 2012

Waiting

My mantra for today:

I invite patience , acceptance and a lot of healing.

ricefield in ubud bali